Analyzing how my brain perceives the world around, the best example so far I can think of, together with the giant TV screens all around, is that it feels like when you haven’t slept for a couple of days and are tired beyond yawning and tears, to a point where you feel like floating, like everything happening around you is a dream you are having and you are in it. So you walk around and do things like in a state of trance, talking to yourself in your mind and analyzing what movements you have to do, while the world around feels like a movie being played in front of your eyes, and there is no connection between that world around and you. Have you felt like that?
That’s the way I normally perceive the world; the way it is and feels for me when interacting with it, and so I don’t have a sense of pertaining to the place, or even being there physically. When walking, driving, talking to a co-worker, etc. it always feels like my mind is watching the surroundings but my body is not there. At all moments I’m interacting with the characters in the TV screens all around, and even though it feels strange, I do it because with time I’ve learned that that’s the way it suppose to be, so at the moment of interacting I’m doing something that is somehow unnatural to me.
That’s one of the reasons I named this blog Alien Ghost, because that’s how I’ve felt all my life; like an Alien creature that doesn’t pertain to the place; and as a Ghost that is watching what is happening around, but nobody can see me; maybe something like it is described as having an Out of the Body Experience.
Have you had an Out of the Body Experience? That’s how I’ve felt all my life by being an Aspie. I don’t know if other Aspies feel the same way since every Aspie is different, but that’s how I feel.
I guess this is just another bit of information I can give you, so you know more about what a freaking Aspie really is.
Raul
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